After having some “intense fellowship” with the hubby yesterday, I woke up to this verse and quote this morning and I had to just smile. God sure has a sense of humor but I’m happy and grateful that He speaks and we all can still be open to listen.
Scripture of the day:1 Corn 13:4 says Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
Meditation Quote: Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world, today I am wise so I am changing myself.
Matthew chapter 14
- John is beheaded
- Jesus withdraws himself
- Jesus preaches, teaches and does miracles
My Thoughts and Reflections
- The sins we are capable of: (A) As I read the scene leading to John’s beheading, I couldn’t help but think of how it all started in the beginning with Eve. (We all have a version of who’s fault it was and who’s to blame, but God knows). But I am amazed that although Herod felt distressed, knew it was wrong yet he still went through with it and gave the order. Why did He allow his word to outweigh justice, to outweigh what was morally right to satisfy the laws and man? (B). What pressure it must has been on the daughter and how young to partake, grow and become part of such evil. I’m sure all she wanted to do as a teen was dance, have fun, eat, get attention, it’s a party not a massacre! Then to be given the head of John to be carried- sheesh. (C). The mother!!, the lengths we go to to justify and cover up our sins. The things we do when we are told we cannot part-take in the things that bring us worldly pleasure, we go to the lengths of committing murder rather that owning up, walking away, or stopping the sin. We hate being told No!
- Stepping away yet stepping in: Jesus loved John and He praised Him (Matt 11: 11). Verse 13 says when he heard what happened He withdrew himself. Like anyone Jesus needed time and space to process the death of his Beloved Friend. Yet the people wanted more. Part of me was saying rebuke them away, take your time to grieve Jesus these are probably the same souls that will help condemn you to your death. But, He is divine.
- Denying ourselves: Thankfully Jesus is just who He is. Full of selflessness, unconditional love and never ending compassion. In the midst of his loss, Jesus still has the compassion within himself to deny how he felt and to reach out and heal the crowd. How many times do we deny ourselves and reach out to help someone. (Yes there are times that we just can’t) but how often in spite of what consumes us, we surrender ourselves and still serve others when the opportunity arises. That’s the kind of Jesus we serve.
- Our faith always needs work: his disciples walked with Him and didn’t see all the potential Jesus had. They limited him, much like we do. He challenged them to feed the people but He knew they had a long way to go still in their faith. He led them to the boat and challenged Peter’s faith again. Although he warned them it was Him, Peter still was afraid in the midst of the one who commands the sea, winds and the waves. I think what breaks my heart in this scene is not that Peter doubted on the water or they thought that Jesus couldn’t feed the people because we all struggle like Peter daily.
My struggle and heartache is simply this, knowing all that I know about Jesus, yet hearing Jesus say those very words to me “why did you doubt?’ After the struggle passes and things often work out, we often say ugh! I should have had more faith, I shouldn’t have doubted! Well, I want to get to that unwavering faith, I want to be that seed that is planted in good soil, be that house with the foundation solid. I want Jesus to look down on me and not feel a hint of worry about my faith in Him or His capabilities because I’m standing on His promises and I’m not shaken. I long to serve my Jesus so fully in every area of my life, but gosh it’s hard some days. Be my light and guide Jesus, till the end.